Out of Touch

 Getting back on track is so hard after hurting someone you love. I lost all thought, feeling, friends and forms of normalcy in life. Right now, time is just passing by and I am spending every minute of it drifting by. It is even harder to converse with other people when we just don't have the connection. What if we have to talk to these people even though we don't want to ?

 It is not every day that we can just go up to someone and just say hi ! Sometimes, we have to talk to these people just so to get some of the daily need for socializing. Humans are social creatures and I am guilty to this. I need to talk to people for at least 5 hours every day. However, I am not crazy enough to time myself every time I talk to people. This is just a rough estimate.

I can't make sense any more when I talk to people. I ask more blatant questions and become more sarcastic in a bad way. I hate myself when this happens every time. This is not the first. I ask questions that are so obvious even though I can't help myself.

Feeling lost. 

Fucking hurts

Relationships is a fucking bastard. No one ever escapes the pain when it ends. 

 Road #2

Stagnant or progression

I use my free time to draw. Some say it's a waste of time, others say time used to do something I love is not wasted time. I love doing activities like reading books, drawing, using Facebook or a simple jog but are these considered a waste of time ? This is a question that have been constantly on my mind.

The verdict is I don't care what other people think. I do what I love and these are not a waste of time. I guess writing this post is a way to self-assure that I am not just losing time. I have read too many articles on the internet telling that the best use of time is to travel and meet new friends. Get out there and experience it all. Say hi to a random stranger.

Well, that is just not me. I don't do extreme socializing or unexpectedly visit a new place alone. I'm not an extrovert and that is just it. We all have a different story on how we spend our time.  I like to spend my time slowly progressing with my activities, this way I can appreciate more when I go out with friends. I will still want to travel around the world but only when I am older with my parent's worries out of the way.

My personal time spent well no matter what others say.

Bridget Jones & CNY

Just read the book and am hooked on her use of v as very. It is an excellent book for anyone finding difficulties in their love life and doesn't want to be fuck-witted by guys. The book is every bit comical just like the movies. I came back from Sitiawan, Perak where there is no Wi-fi and am a day late in updating this blog. A v.good progress in bonding with the family over Chinese New Year. Home town are the best in my opinion as there will always be something to look forward to be it curious aunts wanting to know what my career may be to cousins that keep mostly to themselves. Uncanny family.

A new start

 I have yet to meet my other half and as such, am still enjoying the single life. I want what everybody wants. Travelling, meet new friends, have love, money, fame ( Although in this case, not so much) and the right to have vanity. I am greedy and hungry. These truths I will not hide. Unfortunately, my life is on the normal side right now. Domestic life just like anyone else. I go to college, then university to earn a degree and would probably work for the rest of my life later on. I will probably go on to read stories of other people who have done great things in their life just to make my life more on the bore side. There is always the quote "You are responsible for who you are." Well, great ! Tell me how do I change? Just one thing. Anything.

Currently inspired by this guy

To know more

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/clayton-b-cornell/traveling-around-the-world_b_4065797.html